You don't care about this

Dear, when you have nothing left and the only thing you can do is smile, then just smile.

This is not hard. This is everything but hard. People out there are eating worms and you sit here and fret and complain like a bitch. 

I am soo greedy. I want this and that to happen but I still sit here waiting for miracles. I thought I grew up but I haven't. Can't I just be thankful enough for once? A few more weeks and all this will be over. Play games all you want. Draw, eat, sleep until you vomit them all out again. No one's gonna care. Can't I just for once be thankful enough?

I told you