Solution

As you can see, I have found a solution to all this. Thus life will go on as usual.

Her tears

Inspired by this art I found in Pinterest

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I have a sudden obsession over Paint lately.

The White Witch

At some point in life, everybody has hurt someone whether they intend to or not.

Decisions

I think I wanna stop writing here in my personal blog. What's the point of writing when you don't even know what you wanna write anymore? And then there's crap all the time, because I'm such a crappy girl with an uninteresting life. I literally live under my own cocoon, drawing and gaming and trying hard to write a book and always looking for something fictional to read. Nobody cares about my life.

Actually I found somebody's status on Facebook earlier today and reading what he wrote made me feel like a complete loser. The fact that he's some sort of my 'benchmark' in life makes me feel even worse. Even though it's a status not intended to anyone generally, but y'know, I felt a little disheartened. I noticed I've been feeling a little fragile these days. Believe it or not, I felt like crying out of nowhere while watching a lion dance performance at a shopping mall yesterday -,-"

So that's it. I'll leave this here so I can think. Maybe I'll come back, maybe I won't. We'll just see. 

because I was angry

New Year's Resolution

I only just noticed that I have not made my resolutions for this year. Not a big deal, really, because I actually started not to bother making one since last year. But it's good to have a little list, just to make sure you can refer to it later on when you start to forget. And so that you'll have an objective that you want to achieve. 

First things first, I wanna be the best at what I'm good at. This has been my resolution every year. I don't know if I have ever achieved it, but the fact that I'm not sure proves that I haven't. 

Next, I want to travel to a place that's far away from home. 

And then, I want to own a set of copic markers hehe. 

I want to own a smartphone.

This is becoming too ambitious. Should I stop? Wait just one more.

Get deans list for one of my semesters this year.

Okay. That's about it. Wish me luck. Be kind 2013.

Disconnected

Two days the internet connection at my home here got dysfunctional. Two days of unintentional disconnection to the world. I find myself feeling rather uneasy. Not because of the fact that I couldn't login to my social networking websites, but because I lost connection to my only source of free tutorials and guides on how to colour or draw. 

Just at the very moment I suddenly felt the urge to try my hand in a different type of colouring medium other then pencil colours, and I fret remembering that I have no means of looking for tips and tricks in handling watercolours this time. 

I went on with the urge anyway, convincing myself that I already have the basics in colouring from my experience using pencil colours. But as expected, the results were quite unsatisfactory. I can mix the colours quite well now, but I don't know how to make the colours appear smooth on my drawing. Which is a bummer because it ruined everything. I tried wet on dry first, and then wet on wet, and the latter proved to be a disaster so I gave up. I still need a lot of researching to do.

Finally, I ended up playing a continue-the-sentence-in-the-story game with my sisters and we had such a laugh I literally laughed my tears out. 

But I made these too along the way. At least it makes me feel much happier despite my little failure

They're minimalist posters. I found a lot of them in deviantArt made by absolutely creative and skilled people and been thinking of making one myself since last year. My lack of skill in using Photoshop has hindered the effort, so you know, this was traditionally drawn by hand at first and then edited in Photoshop later. You don't know how much I made my Sharpie work for this. 

I intentionally made them black and white because I like it that way. You can call it a collection of black and white minimalist posters of my favourite animation movies of all time if you'd like. Hehe. There's one more, surely I wouldn't have left it on purpose because that's my most favourite animation movie y'know, but I was too lazy to scan and edit so I left it in my sketch book for later. 

Until then.

I bought a new sketchbook today lalala

On the 27th of January last year, I dared myself to stay away from social networking websites for one day. I don't know why I had to dare myself at that time, because I don't have to now and I can go without internet for days. What's the big deal? I should dare myself to stay away for a month and then talk. But I think last semester break I already did that.

Sometimes I hope certain people understand. I'm not pushing away possibilities, they're the ones ruining it for themselves. I know what I want now. So if I don't meet it then it just won't happen. 

When I'm with this side of my social network I feel belonged and happy and there's nothing to worry about because most of them are like me. Happy single girls. But when I'm with the other side of my social network I feel well I still feel happy but sometimes I feel like the little odd one out. I'm the only happy single girl and when conversations start to stir to 'THAT' topic well you know what I mean, I have to most of the times keep quiet and listen. 

But I'm happy though. At least I have friends.

LOL for the post yang takde kena mengena dengan tajuk :3 lalala